Here’s the thing,
I get that people are going to come in and put of the apartment. Three of us live here and it’s not always going to be on my schedule. However, today when Spencer was home and I was arriving- I literally made it all the way to our bedroom without ANY of them realizing I was even home. It’s called being quiet. Just don’t let the heavy metal door close without holding it. And your dog does not need to wear her collar 24/7. She’s not going to get lost and the tags on her collar jungle and make Tobi lose his goddamn mind. Also it’s not cool to go to work at 9:00 and not be home until 7:30 and leave that poor dog cooped up in your room all day. We leave the boys for eight hours, max. And that’s rare. Usually we come home to at least let them out on days like that. And yeah we could take her out for you but she’s so terrified of us that there’s no point because she won’t even pee so. You said you were going to take her to work with you and now all of a sudden nah?
We’re gonna have a talk this weekend.
I wish I knew how to swim.
Send all good vibes/prayers/thoughts to my friend Rae.
Her little boy is perfect, he just needs to get used to being here and being loved so much. P.s. She’s the best mom so maybe he was super excited to meet her?
We went to little Grant’s second birthday party this past weekend. He’s such a cute and well behaved kid and Spencer had a weird bromance going on with his cousin’s husband, Justin.
Yesterday, I took Spencer’s name for the first time. We didn’t get married, relax. But when I was signing up for the waiver at the climbing place, they couldn’t find me in the system. Which is weird because I’ve already taken the class. I just couldn’t remember if I had used my mom’s maiden name or my dad’s last name or both with a hyphen. So when I re-signed up, I just used Spencer’s. He was completely fine with it. I’ll have it soon enough, anyways.
I just want to move so badly. Except that now I’m making friends in this area and becoming closer and closer to the family that spencer has here and ugh. I don’t want to feel bad for wanting to move and find myself.
"Why am I so emotional?
No, it’s not a good look, gain some self-control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn’t hurt”
I guess I like making plans and talking about the future because I need to convince myself that Spencer is here to stay. This song made me cry when I first heard it. I’ve had more then my fair share or relationships end at the drop of a hat with no looking back. Promises aren’t always kept and I’m trying SO hard to believe that this is different and that I can breathe knowing that I don’t have to walk alone anymore.
Spencer’s family doesn’t even invite him to their get togethers anymore. They invite ME and then I guess they assume that I’m going to tell him and we’ll show up together.
Hi I wore this the other day out in public and I felt really cute.